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These words are an encouragement to those who struggle with this. Because I never struggled with this slavery, when my son who is not a Christian asked me about this, I gave him an answer but your answer and experience gives a more defined and indepth answer. I thank God for your openess and also your deliverance from it. Though the fight goes on daily and the struggle is still there Praise God you gave it to Him and with Him the fight is less scarring. I will email this to my son and Lord willing the Lord will draw him to himself with your testimony. Thanks again

That poem spoke to me and where i was in my struggle!...wow...that was powerful.

I thank God that P4CM is open and gives us an avenue to be real with ourselves and with what God's Word has to say about masturbation.  I was in slavery-bondage-->defeated for 13 years, BUT GOD! Yes, He is able and we find our freedom in Christ. 

For anyone who may be struggling still...you have to guard yourself with the Word of God.  You know how you experienced freedom for like a day, a week, 2 weeks??...what did you do? If you were like me you were in Gods word like no other lol, but then you kinda got weak and fell off right?...Well, the key is, is the same thing you had to do to experience freedom in that time is the same thing you have to do X10.  His word is powerful.  Use it, mediate on it, and simply DENY YOURSELF.  Thats what I had to do and I am freeeeeeeee Praise God!

I will be praying for all of you who may be in the same battle that you may experience freedom in Christ Jesus.  He's Able!

~Stay strong in the faith! 

GEE WIZZ! awesome! i never clearly saw how difficult masterbation was until i read this poem.i've never done so but am completely guilty of lust and that makes my sin just as bad as yours, in fact i can relate in many areas. keep up the boldness in Christ Jesus, I'm sure yall sharing ur story He allowed you guys to go through makes Him proud. luv yall.

i just went through this today i want to go forward in the calling God has placed on my life but this is holding me i thought i was done with this but the hold gets stronger and stonger. the worst part about this is that i know deep down within me i can beat this i know if i just draw strengh from Jesus Christ i will beat this.

"The pain is outweighing the pleasure.
This is changing me.
Becoming selfish.
Becoming lonesome.
Not wanting to be around people.
Becoming self-consumed."
 

Hit it on the head with that one G......I def. agree that it changes you, because its changed me.  Pray for me because it has def. brought about a spirit of selfishness and stuborness in me.  I dont want to be like this!!  Real Talk.  This is not me. Its definitely broken that fellowship that I have with others and most of all with the Lord.... Please keep me prayed up. 

Bonjourno dear friends! I was reading about for a while and now i'm registered:) Hope i'm welcome here:)

It's as thought i've just been handed a flash light.......Amen!!!...

God Bless you, i dont think you truly know how much this poem is shinning light and spoon feeding clearity for those who are feens stuck on sin; which we all were at some point. Man......God Bless you i'll be prayen that you keep fighting from moment to moment with the word of God as your sheld.

Amen

I thank God that He is using people to open up and be real about this. This is a sin that if left hidden in our lives will cause destruction like no other. The reality is it effects men and women. I am a female and I struggled with this for years. My addiction was so bad, I had to go into the bathroom at work and "relieve myself". When I left work, I locked myself in my home and watched porn and had phone sex night after night. I don't even want to talk about the charges on my credit card. I watched so much porn, I didn't even have to use my hands anymore, I would use my mind to masterbate. I would then try to tell myself, well I didn't touch, so it's not as bad. I didn't tell anyone for fear of how they would look at me. Then one day after having an all nighter with "myself" and afterwards coming to my senses, and seeing the items laying on my bed that I had used to molest myself with, I had to deal with the beatdown of the shame. I was so devastated that I wanted to die. I began to confess my vile behavior before God and continued to let him deliver me. I will say it is a process, but we can make it.

I've been on masturbation for years! Don't even know when I'm gonna get out of this. This thing is strong. I love the Lord. But it seems like pornography and masturbation is putting a big gap between me and my God.

I've tried everything I could to stop, so I could get on with my calling...

But my stubbonness keep drawing me back!

They say...for every dark night there's a brighter day...

But I don't even know when my day will come!!

Thanks a lot, Larry, for your encouragement!

Everyday the Bible's becoming realer and realer to me--whatever you struggling with your brothers and sisters are also going through the same!!

May the God of Able, The Loving God, The Most Mercifull, The Kindest, Jehovah Nissi bless you and your family and your whole crew!!

...and special thanks to P4CM!

Amen

ur bro in Christ Frank

thank you...my addiction "covered" up pain in my life, but this is no longer the case...God equipped me with the spirit of power, and i want to make Him proud of me (II Timothy 1:7)

Rev. 12:10, 11--we overcome Satan (and his devices that represent him) by the blood of the Lamb and the word of our testimony. Satan can't accuse us when the blood covers us, and cleanses us of sin.

By reading this poem, i see a man after God's heart in these words.  i hear complete dependance on the Most Holy Almighty Savior Jesus Christ.

i was in bondage to lust, and as impossible as it seemed, i'm free and have no desire  for the "drug" anymore. i respect my body that is the Holy Spirit's Temple and i don't belong to me (1Corintians 6:19,20), i present me as the Lord's vessel to use and be glorified by; and I respect my husband who's to come and will find me clean as i expect him to also be. 

God bless u, Larry, for these words, for your transparency, for your courage.  God is using u to free many bound, also helping people to see their own chains that were never visible to them, and then also giving hope to those who are determined to be free! we can do all things thru Christ which/who (Him and his anointing) strengthens us (Philipppians 4:13) and God always causes us to triuph in Christ! (2Corinthians 2:14) Amen (so be it!)

I love u, bro.

Folasade

    Wow, reading this poem, I had to reflect on my addiction to masterurbation and how God delivered and saved me from it. I saw alot of myself in your words and it somehow just comforted me because I was not the only one suffering from this spiritual disease. It plagued me every day and nite, every time I was alone. It was so bad my addiction consumed my thoughts to where I could not focus on anything. I would plan out when and where I could masturbate.

Im just thankful and eternally grateful that I no longer suffer from masturbation. During that time my fellowship had an event where we do intense bible study. There I learned to cut off things that cause me to sin and repent to God. So I shattered my toy into pieces and confessed to one of my leaders. I havent done it since and its only been a month and a half. 

I truly agree with this culture of sin. Where everything you hear on the radio or see on the internet and TV is about sex and desire for the wrong reasons. This culture feeds into this idol of sex instead of God. Its everywhere but I try to seperate myself from it. I still have alot of steps to take to become right with God and  myself.

God has freed me of so many sins and so many hardships and issues in my life this past year and a half of following Jesus, and so many times has he poured His grace over me and saved me.  But masturbation still has such a hold on me.  After confessing and discussing it so many times, I still continue to do it, to run to it like a dog to vomit.  Whenever the urge comes it is like all my faith and trust in Him is thrown out.  I've learned that I can be as practical and cautious as I want; I always seem to find some sort of excuse.  Nothing is going to save me from this but Jesus.  It's only by putting every bit of my faith and trust in Him that I'm ever going to see any change in this.  He died a violent criminal's death in place of me and everyone else, and took all the burden on himself.  But everytime I mess up it is as if I am looking up at Him on the cross and telling Him, "You are not enough."  Seeing the boldness and the openness here is encouraging though. 

So I just pray for myself, my friends, and the people here; that we could just trust Jesus enough to let Him be master over our desires, come what may, to let Him be master over our thoughts and actions.  I pray also Lord, that you would continue to bless P4CM with more boldness and conviction, more passion in your work, and more of your Spirit, that more hearts would be won for your glory Jesus.

I was excited about the Ex-Masturbator shirt-- masturbation is a huge problem for a lot of people and some people do not even realize it is wrong... You got your folks who have grown up in the Church and pride themselves on their virginity but every time they get alone they are masturbating... get the word out, speak openly about it...

Thank You for this inspiration. I've been struggling with this since I was two years old. What turned into innocence had now become lustful desire. Once I was stimulated on my own and then soon by images that I'm not so proud of. I'm a pastor's grand-daughter and I was always known as the angel yet I kept this deep dark iniquity that I had no idea was wrong and when I found out I kept running away from the truth as if it my wrong didn't exist. I'm trying to live a better Christian life and this is one of the main things that has been slowing me down in gaining a closer relationship with God.

                                                                         Love,

                                                                              "Want to be honest with myself and family"

Someone hear me please.

This sin is tearing apart lives. In my religion, those who view pornography are kicked out of the congregation and shunned until they stop. Masturbation doesn't get you kicked out, but since the two so often go together the consequences are the same. I have seen my father and brother shunned within the past year, and they haven't overcome the problem yet. Can you imagine a problem so bad that you lose your friends and congregation over it but still can't stop? Masturbation and pornography are problems that bad.

I have the same problem but I'm too afraid to confess because I'll be kicked out. Still, I must overcome. Pornography is idolatry, that's why the punishment is so severe, yet any little thing can put porn images in my head and I'm off to the races. I've gotten the masturbating down to once a week and I don't even find pleasure in it anymore. But I need something stronger to know it's gone for good and to help my father and brother.

Why didn't anyone ever tell me how bad this is? How it is such a trap? What kind of world is this where an addiction like masturbation is celebrated, and something as degrading as porn is considered good and wholesome? How in the world can I escape when I'm surrounded by it. And I KNOW it's not okay, because it makes me feel like a slave. I just don't know how to overcome for good.

thanks be to the lord jesus christ for this confessions.it is more than just poem its a PRAYER!!!

may u be blessed with power , overcoming, peace and the word in the name of jesus!

God bless all of those u need to ifht against their selfs!

j.

While reading this I was almost close to tears - its as if this poem was written exactly about me and I live all the way in London (England).

I have been under the hold of masturbation probably since i was about 14 or 15 and I'm 20 now, and it also lead me to pornography.

I cannot count the number of times that to tried to stop but I would go  and do it AGAIN!!

I remember one time I stopped for about 4 and a half months, I was soo happy! I don't remember what sett me off,but i remember doing it, and after i had finished, i just looked at my hands, fell to the ground and began to weep bitterly - like "What is WRONG WITH ME???"

Trust me its a powerful stronghold, more than anything it has a spirit and it will only take Jesus to brake it hold over anyone.

You go through the stage where you convince youself there is nothing you can about it - you can't help it, it's human nature, everybody in the world says its okay - even that it's healthy, they will give you all these apparent benefits..

BUT IT IS NOT!!!!!

I thank God for P4CM from the bottom of my heart, my friend posted one of ur videos on facebook and i followed the link, and i've been looking at all your other ones. I have never as convicted before as I am now.

I DO NOT WANT TO BE A LUKEWARM CHRISTIAN ANYMORE!!! (trust me I'm a pastor's daughter, but God knows I'm not living the life He wants me to). And now i realise now, i need to change. I can't carrry on the way I like the way I've living - THE PRICE OF SIN IS TOO GREAT, and the sacrifice Christ paid for me was too expensive for me to throw it back in His face.

And this time, I am deteremined to use my life, and everything He has giving me to glorify Him.

And with this new mindset, I am going to fight this stronghold once again in Jesus name. Amen!

As of this moment I am still struggling, - the last time I masturbated was on Monday (about five days ago) and now I just praying for His strength to resist temptation - for it wil surely flee.

I praise  God I am still a virgin (technically), but I know mentally my heat has been darkened with sexual sin.

I have God's forgiveness, and I know that By His grace and His grace alone I have the victory already in Jesus name. Amen!

For al my brother's and sisters still struggling, call unto God for strength - He will bring you through it, you can't do it alone - I've learn that the hard way!

GOD BLESSSS YOU GUYS AT P4CM!!!!!!

I cry when i think of losing his love, scared to think of what might come of me and everything i stand for if i lose his love. No one understands when i day recite the words of John 3:16, talking about how no matter what God's love for us will  never end and that as long as we live in his image and we believe in Him we will always have life with him sitting along those who wait to see us in his amazing home above. One thing I remember is that To be loved is to be known and to be known is to be loved and his love for you and me will always be shown. Through the darkest nights when everything seems to be going wrong. All the temptations we face will always have help to overcome the worst.

There is a song that is called im in His hands and it says this...

Im in His hands, im in his hands. What ever the future holds im in His hands. The days i cannot see have all been planned for me. His way is best you see, Im in his hands.

We will always be in His Hands!!!

Wow, thanks a lot. That really helps. I was just about to do something lustful, I've tried everything to stop but I couldn't. I quoted Bible verses, I

listened to Christian music, I walked away, I walked out of my room, I got out of the shower quickly, I prayed, I confessed... But I'll be free for a

moment, for a while, for a few months.... And here I go again. God bless me with a poetry gift. I love to write my feelings in poems. I was so

caught up in sexsual immorality that I thought of writting a poem of my struggle, my guilt, and my everyday faillure. I was still living in it, that

peom doesn't include any way out of it. Although I'm a christian, I didn't know how to be free from it. I thought there was no way out.

But, Thank God for you guys @ P4CM. Now I'm FREE. I thank God for using you guys to make a difference. Continue to let God use you. I'll

keep guys in my prayers. The battle is not ours, the battle is the Lord's. 

i am a 25 year old ugandan who has struggled with Masturbation for the last 10 years. I am still struggling with it. I have read testimonies of diffrent people on this site and i belive i too can overcome. I have swallowed my pride and i desire to recive help from who ever can help.

Thanks and Kind Regards.

Thank God for his goodness as I myself have been saved from the enslavement of masturbation. It's surprising how one can convince themselves that it's nothing when it's displeasing to God. With God's help I've been able to stop and learn to love myself as he loves me. And finally, concentrate on being a steward for the world instead of self-indluging. Thank you God!!! ^_^

I am also struggling with Masturbation and pornography  but I am going to overcome it I am hiding myself in the word I am taking the steps necessary to be delivered its hard but no chains will bound me I am determined to stand on the word of god awaiting my deliverance. I have ordered my Ex-series t-shirts and ready to be free please keep me in your prayers. Thank you Larry for this Poem it truly is an inspiration.

Thanks so much for putting this on here. I can relate to this so much. I am still struggling with this sin but I ask that you continue to pray for me as I continue to grow in my relationship with Christ. It has been 2 weeks now and The Lord has kept me strong. Thanks for your prayers.  God Bless!!!!

Wow im just absolutely......speechless right now.Its like the writer whoever wrote this was right in my room with me and inside my mind....I feel like crying.lol,but I'm just thankful soooo much for God's grace and mecry for placing it on me,as many times as I've engaged in pornography and masturbated,I've felt the same way as this poem.I just thank God sooo much,I cant even thank him enough.If I have to deny my flesh and no matter how hard it may be,I will do it in honor of my father God and my brother Jesus Christ.I believe that all the pornography,sex,drugs and everything that is not like God is not worth going to Hell over,because I wanna be able to inherit my Kingdom in Heaven and spend eternity with the Lord Jesus rest of my life....Glory Hallelujah! God Is So Wonderful!

Thank God for this poem, it really talked to me... I had struggled with this problem for years but now, Thank Him, im free!! I loved this poem so much i translated it and put in my Blog, called The Cristian Youth ( O Jovem Cristão), if you guys wanna see it, it will be a honour. God bless you all my brothers.

Kayo - www.ojovemcristao.blogspot.com

This is something that I have been struggling with. This really touched me and I thank you so much for sharing it with everybody. I have the faith now that I can overcome this with my Lord, Jesus Christ. Thank you so much!

Hi just wnt to say, props for u all for speaking up about this behavior that is happing in us all. I had struggle with this behavior before and stop. And started again all because of not being able to satisfy this feeling of wanting to have sex so u start to touch ur self and it feel good and so on and so forth. But i felt that i had concord this temptation and was threw with it until my man that is in jail and want me to share this act with him he say that i should not restrict him and it's not right because he's my husband. I reallly know that my husband is highly sexual and i do belive that he is very lustful but he won't admit it. I find myself stressing because the feeling is not mutural of wanting to( Don't know what to do.)          

                                                                             Thank You.

I just want to take this time to appreciate the poem...which is real life for soo many. I've been dealing with this issue lately, and I'm TIRED of failing, and falling short in this area. The Stronghold of masturbation does indeed have a STRONG--HOLD, However, we do NOT have to be HELD by the bondage that masturbation(OR any other sin) brings. "...For sin shall NOT have dominion over you (us)..." (Romans 6:12-14) We, by the HELP of the LORD can overcome what hinders us. (Hebrews 12:1-2) THANKS be to GOD, the work Jesus Christ did on the cross HAS covered and JUSTified us, and we have the OPPORTUNity to be slaves unto RIGHTeousness (Romans 6:18) "Therefore(we will)...Submit to God...Resist the Devil...and he will flee from you (us).."(James 4:7-8)

) Thanks, Blessings to you!

The devil is a liar! i had initially poured out my heart and everything got wiped off in a wiered way.i believe God saw all i wrote cos he is an all knowing God and he knows the thoughts in my heart, and he has heard my cry and put an Amen to all my prayers....I am free because i am in christ and he that is in christ is free indeed!

He delivered me from masturbation and He will deliver everyone else...check out my testimony below...I struggled with this for over 10 years!!!

Masturbation/pornography/lesbianism…
I group these three together because they all went hand in hand.  One started and led to the next which led to the next.  God delivered me from these around the time when He saved me (age 19, 2006), they were probably the first things He delivered me from and this was the first thing He really did for me that let me know that He can do anything…

When I was much younger, probably 6 or 7 years old, somehow (and I don’t remember how) I found out that if I did certain things to my body, certain things felt good.  So I did them. And kept doing them for years.  It might have started out kind of off and on but eventually I was doing it about everyday if not more than once a day. I mean for years! I got saved when I was 19 and I was doing it up until after that!

You might wonder what’s so wrong with it, it’s your body? All I can say is that I felt guilty whenever I did it after a while.  I had to hide it, it wasn’t something you could just do in front of everybody.  At some points during those years I decided I would stop doing it altogether and I would for a while, maybe even weeks or months, but I would just start back up doing it.  I remember at one point making a decision not to do it on Sundays at least because I felt so guilty.  That didn’t last either.  It was something I did and wasn’t proud of.  I was actually ashamed of it.  That’s what was so wrong with it.

So I would do this thing, called masturbation, on my own.  Then, conveniently I suppose, I found out that it helped if I watched something when I did it.  We never had the deluxe cable that had all those porno channels but I remember that sometimes they could come in, even though the picture was super distorted.  I could see some of what they were doing so I would watch those and do it when I was home alone.  Later in life I got a tv with cable in my room and that’s when I really was able to watch the channels that had pornographic shows on late at night, without the distorted picture.  I did this night after night and whatever they had on that had anything to do with sex, I was watching it. 

So, of course, they had shows on with people of the same sex having sex.  I got into that a lot.  And I figured that at some point in my life, if just once, I would have sex with a woman.  I even thought that maybe I could get into that lifestyle too, why not? Sex is sex whoever it comes from.  Wow. When I think about the fact that if I had just been given the chance I would have, I thank God that I never got that chance before He delivered me!  I could have had the chance, I’m sure it was definitely on my enemy’s agenda for me.

So, like I said, it was always something I did that I was ashamed of and I knew it was wrong and God didn’t like it.  Whenever I did it, it was like I was doing it in front of Him and my angels and I imagined them being disappointed and turning away their faces from me.  But I really couldn’t do much about it, it was something I did and had been doing for years and even if I wanted to stop I didn’t have the ability to do so.  Until He made a way.  Around the time when I got saved I had been going to church and hearing about how good He was and that if I just trusted Him, He’d do whatever I needed Him to do.  Some of the saints used to say “if you just call on Jesus, He’ll deliver you!”.  Well, eventually, obviously, I got saved and gave my life over to Him.  From there I knew I had to stop masturbating and all that came with it so I decided I would.  However, in the back of my mind I would leave a loophole for myself, like “I’ll probably do it at least one more time” or “when I feel like I have to, I just will and He’ll forgive me”.  I think I did it a few more times too, but there was a point when I really decided I was going to stop and just trust Jesus to do the rest.  It was not easy, especially because masturbation is something you control and can do at your own will in the privacy of your own home and no one’s stopping you but you.  If YOU don’t want to stop, YOU won’t.  Well, I guess enough of me finally wanted to stop so I tried doing what I heard from the saints to do.  When I was alone and got the urge, I literally called on Jesus…every time, as long as I needed to I would just say His name over and over until I guess I went to sleep or the urge left.  I couldn’t believe I was actually doing what I had heard so many times to do but always thought it was just something people said, but it worked.  That was a few months after I got saved and it’s been 3 years since then and not only have I stopped doing it completely, but I don’t even have that “loophole” mentality anymore.  I’m totally done with it and never want to do it again.  And, I definitely don’t want to have any part of a lifestyle that would cause me to be ashamed before God.  That means masturbating, watching pornography, fornicating with women or anything like that.  I don’t know how He did it but He totally changed my mindset and way of thinking which has enabled me to overcome these things.  From this I do know for myself that God can do ALL things and nothing is too hard for Him and I thank Him for delivering me from those demons and my own self.  Praise Him!!!!
 

AMEN!!!!!!!!!!!!! thank you father for pmc ...they dont no what impact they have on our youth  im schocked that sooo many others stuggle with this to.. i stuggle with it for years but in GODS holy name i will overcome !!!!!! THANK YOU PMC I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!

Thank you for your testimonies. I know it is hard to step forth into the light and confess your sins, but I am so glad that you did. I was just going on line to seek out the pornography that helps me achieve the "high" as I masturbate, but somehow I saw a link to this site. I thank God that He who loved us while we were still in sin, who sent His only Son to die a sinful death for us, continues to love me. He provided an out for me. "No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it." 1 Corinthians 10:13 (NIV)

So often I focus on the enemy's words saying "just this one time"...."I've tried to quit so much, and yet have failed. Perhaps there is no cure for this"......"You are alone in this. No one else has this lack of self-control, what's wrong with you?" but I've been listening to the lies way too long. Thank you for sharing your testimonies, because it confirms His Word which says "We overcome by the blood of the Lamb and the words of your testimony." Because of your boldness, I too can testify.

I testify that although I have been struggling with this sin for 12 years, I refuse to give way to it one more day. His Word says that by His stripes I am healed, so I choose to believe that I am healed from this addiction. I will no longer try to do this on my own--but surrender my mind and body to Christ seeking His guidance. As His word says in Ephesians 6:10-18: 

"Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints."

Its easy for me to be prideful and say that because I have read the scriptures it is enough---I have allowed my mind to be corrupted so much that no kind of sexual sin or perversion surprises me any more. I fear sometimes that the corruption is so deep that I will never be pure again, that I will never see sex as the beautiful gift God made for a husband and wife again. Technically I am a virgin, but I know this means notihing concerning purity--for if one even has lust in his/her mind, he/she is guilty of adultery. That's the devil's tactic, to corrupt what God meant for good. Nevertheless, I stand firm on this truth: our God is a healer, redeemer, a restorer. He said that "Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new." 2 Cor. 5:17

I am a sinner saved by grace. I rely on His righteousness. And dedicate myself as a living sacrifice. My body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, and I choose this day to honor Him with my body, my mind, and my soul. I have never confessed this sin of masterbation and pornography before--I was always so ashamed, and then prideful that I could find my own deliverance without ever admitting my failing to anyone. It was my business, and I would handle it.

Because of your boldness and obedience to share your poem Larry and everyone else who commented, I recognised my pride for what it was. Pride goes before the fall, and I have fallen time and time again. I testify today that though the temptation is great, my love for Jesus is greater. I love Him more that I love my flesh. I choose to obey Him and His word and flee, yes flee from all sexual immorality.

Please pray for me, and know that I am praying for you. He said that "If my people who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray, and turn from thier wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, I will forgive their sins, and I will heal their lands." This day I seek the healing of my land, your land, and the land around us.

I have hidden in the dark for way too long. This day claim victory in Christ, and shine for Him alone.

In His love,

~a daughter redeemed

Im s sophomore in high school i tried it back in middle school it was something i thought would be boring and trivial then after that one time it felt good some peoples addiction are drugs well mines is this very thing its hard it started from one time to doing it 3 times a day and i felt bad but didnt care it didnt matter masturbation is just like a drug you gotta do it more and more to get that desired affect the first time gave you its hard to resist it i have to stop watching tv cause its full of such sexual tension i had to literallt unplug it and i was going to put a block on my computer cause no lie thats where everyone my age goes to get the influences needed just like a steriod user needs a needle to inject, porn and masturbation go hand and hand, im trying to end this before it takes over my life anymore than it has, i cant be alone because thats when you have soooooo much free time all tha idle time masturbation was the thing to do its been a year i started this addiction back in june of 08' so its been a little over a year and im still struggling. i stopped cold turkey once but i was having so many urges and i ran back just when i thought i was good so im trying this again im trying to stop better yet im going to stop. thank you for making that poem it inspires me im sure there are other teens out there like me who are two ashamed to admit they do it. but they arent alone its a addiction but just as it can be started it can be ended

Wow what a word from the LORD at a time like this, i have struggled with masturbation for over seven years, and it seems to keep showing up in my life. I realized through this poem that as long as i keep this secret i will continue to be in "bondage", because as long as no one knows i am not accountable to anyone but myself. I find this poem so deep and amazing, because i know that i am not the only person who has ever battled this sin. This poem just inspired me to hold on to the principles of CHRIST i can and too will overcome this bondage and rise above it. I now realize that my struggle is my testimony, and no matter how much shame it may cause i can't do this in my own will. I love this ministry and i thank you for all you do because without you i would still be struggling with the sin of masturbation.

hi all,

 this morning i did that dirty thing... and as usual cried to the God ... i use to ask God to show me some people who is suffering like me..  who are delivered from this. because i felt by telling this to somebody who can really understand will bring me some solution to me..( i dont trust in people around me i am afraid of them.) I am 24 now after many year god answered me by making me to see this site. GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME to me.. But I am not so good to him.

Only today i came to know the name of this dirty thing.. Whenever i do it i use to call myself a prostitute because i find no difference between the two. I JUST TYPED 'DELIVERANCE FROM PROTITUTION' and this site came first in the list under the name masturbation.

GOD answred me today. God will deliver me one day. This is the hope i have in him

thank u p4cm.

My mind says dont type anything more than this.. but i want to

My parents are more caring to me but still i dont like why because they think about my studies, my clothings, my food, my marriage... but never think about what is happening in me ..

   In my childhood ( i dont remember my age) i was sexually abused by some of my relatives. I dont understand for  years what they are doing and why they did that to me ( I was really enjoying it!). I never said this to anybody even to my mother. But at the age of 9 or 10 i realized what they are doing to me is wrong i dont know how i realized it .. from then on i started avoiding them.. I l get angry when i just see them even today..my mother use to ask me what is wrong with me.. i just say I dont like them....then for some time i was normal. After this, a stupid thing came into my house- a tv. only when am alone all bad things will be shown in it !!!. some times when i am alone i will try to dress like those stupid ladies shown in movies and if i see a man touching a women in a movies i felt like he is touching me- and i will remember those relatives who did that to me... some days later those thoughts degraded from my mind..

....i remeber when i ws in eigth class i got very strict teacher , giving homeworks every day, always trying to keep us engaged in some work.. till my tenth class it continued. In my tenth class i cut the cable of my tv. I hardly use to think about all those things..

After my tenth class i got three months vacation ... only thing i did in that time is watching tv.. all tha day time i will watch sport channel ... just to pretend i am interested in only sports... in the night time my finger search for porn channel. One day i saw that - how men and women have sex . From then till now i am suffering. I dont have many friends, i started fighting with my parents, siblings and every one i see i find some chance to judge them. I give all false reason for my anger.I feel like nobody is there to ask me "what is your problem". I am always in search of people who ask me about my personal problem. but if some ask about my problem i will angry on them.. i dont trust people around me..

Then came the internet to my home and now wi-fi to my hostel.... whenever alone i will see the dirty thing and do it and cry for it...

 while seeing or before seeing those thing my mind says "what is wrong in just seeing", "as a women i must know about it", "what is wrong in seeing the nude picture... it is just a picture", "the model posing nude is big sinner  because she tempting ohters to see", "the very big sinner is the site owner", ...... then finally "this world is sinful , i cannot escape".......................... the same before doing that dirty thing...

 i really donot know fromwhere i got the idea of using my hands and pillows and all other things to do this dirty thing. I am normal when my room mates( i m n hostel) are in.  when they just talk to me i feel like disturbance to me/my studies!! . I am also sincere to my studies when they are in . But once they say that they are going out, immediately the thought of masturbation comes into my mind... this is the one reason why i started believing in EVIL forces around ME.

I am not a christian.. but i believe in christ, because he promised to deliver us from evil.... but i am weak believer .. change my mind often .whenever i fall to this act i use to say "no god, no evil in this world.. i am bad i dont deserve to live in this world ..."  then later say sorry to god and ask him "please cure me.... i dont know how to come out of it"

But now i say to you all ... Jesus is the lord who really listen to our words and give answers and solutions to your problems.

friends please pray for me.. i want to come out of it .. i want to be faithful to god, my parents, and the one who is going to marry me, and a very responsible mother.

after typing these things i feel somewhat better than this morning.... 

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GOD TODAY A SPECIAL DAY FOR ME .... YOU ANSWERED ME ..SHOWN ME PEOPLE SUFFERING LIKE ME 

O MY LOVING FATHER YOU WILL MAY A WAY FOR ME ... YOU WILL...

amen.

May I copy your poem and put it in my blog!

To the author, THANK YOU!

What a wonderful poem. I identify with each and every word used to express this predicament. I have been there done that......slowly getting delivered but occassionally struggling with masturbation. I HATE IT!!  i feel so bad about it........sometimes I feel like going under. But I know that God's grace is sufficient and before I know it, I will hjave conquered this bondage. I confess victory over the spirit of masturbation in the name of Jesus. i commit myself to pay for all those that have opened up ang shared what they have been going through. Let's pray for each other and lets dedicate ourselves wholly to God. It is well!!

i used to have this same problem but God set me free............im a poet too and i wrote a poem abt my struggles with masturbation but and even preformed it.........but i had to edit some off it bcus it was a bit too ......one thing i have relised is that freedom from masturbation is a fight..........i understand everything u have said in ur poem becus i was hooked on porn and masturbation since the 3rd grade.....and i am finally free.....its all abt what u feed ur self........try and prevent urself from listenin to wordly music and watchin to much tv......and accountability is essential....u need a person u can talk to when ur struggling who can pray with u as God renews ur mind...............i am no longer a slave to masturbation!!!

this is the most heart moving n bitter,but yet uplifting poem and comments i av ever read in my life..it brings tears to my eyes and hears to read d pain of a this deadly addiction us men n women r going fru..whilst trying to connect n remain right with God almighty..oh God how my heart wants to please u, but my flesh denies me!!..i can relate to majority of d comments n the peom itself.rather shock to come across such thing in a Christian website..but that makes P4CM REAL..ur not tryin 2 teach people 7 steps to make money or steps to finanacial break, wat eva happened to praying n asking God urslf.surely dres no formula 2 grace..nway i sincerely pray that God cures each n every1 one of us..

Romans 7.21-24..a man of God with a stronghold with a similar fleshy problem.

i once said trying to abstain from sin is like being droped into the ocean n yet trying to remain dry..ocean symbolic 4 sin ere...one thing i want any1 who reads this is to notice the similarities in every1 comments, clearly there is sum form of spiritual aspect to this phenomenoem.henceforth not sumfin u can do by ur own will alone or ur human strength.believe me my hearts goes out to all of u..bcos i can relate,but am free now.it was truly a miracle,sumfin supernatural.i tell u dis i didnt av a routine nor plan or schedule..my heart n mind was in love with God,i wanted Him,he fascinated me soo much,His love n ways were incredible n amazing...my entire being n life was engulf with desire 2 please God.. i can only recommend n1 who reads dis goin fru dis sin stop n look at dre heart n mind n c who or wat occupies it.

may GOD in heaven save us all..amen

Thank you for writin this, very encouraging and gives me hope