I just watched the actual video of the "Homosexual Questions Uncovered" and WOW! Praise God for that powerful discussion and the testimonies! I had seen Larrel's testimony and Jackie's testimony and they had struck me and God has used them to point me to issues that had happened in my past. Even though I would never have said before, I did struggle for a long time with my sexuality and even though it wasn't an overt thing, it was a deep and private battle. I kept up the appearance that everything was cool and I was perceived to be this "goody two shoes" - but that was the worst part! the double life was killing me! It wasnt until i came to Christ and repented of my sins that God uncovered the wounds and the things in the past that had messed me up concerning my sexuality. I always fronted that i was heterosexual and only had feelings for men, but that didn't stop the thoughts and the fantasy of being with other women. It was killing me... cuz i knew it was wrong and i knew it wasnt supposed to be like that, but i didnt know how those feelings got there and i didnt know that there was any way out.

The first time i realised what had happened to me in the past was the cause of my state of mind was the video that you guys came out with that discussed bisexuality. and it was when someone (i cant remember her name) mentioned how she had received oral sex at 5 years old that i realised that "man, this is a problem and oh my goodness, i had an sexual experiences/a number of experiences like that as a child".

Satan is out messing kids' minds up with these perverse/child molesting spirits cuz he knows its a way to destroy their destinies and cause them not to trust in the love of God - we need to pray against all satanic devices and such powers to be pulled down in Jesus name (2 corinthians 10:3-6).

So I praise God that Larrel spoke up and said that she had been sexually abused/molested by someone of the same sex when she was younger cuz that was what happened to me. It was my cousin and I remember afterwards feeling the hurt and the shame but also then just wanting more from her, cuz I had been opened up to that sensation. So when she spent the night over at my house I was reaching out and touching her and wanting to fulfil this sexual desire. I was probably 6 years old or something. It never occurred to me that it would have damaging effects on my emotional and mental health. Cuz I felt emotionally dependent on her (and subsequently on alot of women) cuz she had stimulated that passionate desire in me. God is so right when he says we should flee sexual immorality cuz its more than just a physical thing it encompasses every connection there is - spiritual, emotional, mental.

WOW, God is powerful!!! Mighty to save, y'all!! So just keep trusting Him and He will deliver you!

I always knew I could relate to the bisexual/homosexual testimonies but i never knew the root cause of why the Holy Spirit wanted me to seek Him on that. and actually for a long time i blamed myself and tried to fill in the gap by saying that it was all on me and it was all my fault and i was accountable for the sin that someone else did to me. Now, I realise that was just the devil capitalising on my shame... but wait till he gets it though - People are gonna be delivered thru my testimony and all our testimonies, in Jesus name!!!
It's also what I went thru when other people later on in my childhood molested and touched me up and stuff. Now i realise that is was the devil's tactic to make me feel like i was still the culprit and make me wonder how I was going to get myself out of the mess. Thanks be to Jesus Christ!!! Man, I'm gonna go hard for the Lord!!! He is so worthy of all my praise and adoration! Praise Jesus! Thank you, Lord for saving me!!!

One passage that stuck from a young age was Matthew 18:6-7 and if you read it, it just reveals God's heart and that He really is a just God. That passage has brought me SO much reassurance and comfort in just confronting these issues. PRAISE GOD!!!
 

God bless you all and i pray He continues to uphold and encourage you to speak up in this hour, in Jesus name, Amen!